IN THE MOMENT

Freshly bathed + popcorn + kisses from Nana + an extra smooch that Nana said was from Dedo in Heaven = pure bliss.

That SMILE & unmistakable joy of hers reminded me of my Dad tonight. It's funny that it is also in these 'little' moments that I am reminded of the importance of sloooowing down, something my Tata did so well.

Living this first summer without my father here is just plain hard if I really allow myself to go there. There are so many thoughts that circle through me when I think about what things would be like if he was still here & how much he would live for moments like these above.

BUT, living in the 'what if's' of life is certainly not living in the moment... and, at the very least, I know that is not what my father would have wanted for me. Today I was reminded that living awake takes daily effort, but man is it worth it.

“At some point you just have to let go of what you thought should happen and live in what is happening.”
-- Anonymous

#100daysoflivingAWAKE day 33